Art was dead
… on finding back to production
Drawing and painting have always been my companions ever since my childhood. It has been my way of coping with my reality and of finding my piece in a rush of lines and patterns and colors.
My inspirations were nature, music and surrounding myself with color.
At home I wandered endlessly through green spaces of my neighbourhood, every summer it was Swedish forests in long holidays. Soft and wet moss, lichens, wind torn pines and water grounded rocks became my temple. When I was 11 years old, my mother died. I drew and painted a lot during my youth. Then I decided to study Art and Biology to become a teacher. During my teaching period there were phases of intense creativity time and again , discontinuated by other work and building a family. After a highly productive phase in my late 30’s I more or less completely stopped creating. A notion of futility concerning my artistic work had settled over me. In times of digital high performance, of Social media showering you with an oversupply of visual stimuli and presented exuberant talent, my own manuell and artistic work did not have a place or legitimacy. I got rid of all my work, sold it as a bargain or gave it away to friends. Art was dead to me.
I focused on education. After spending two pandemic years in Kuala Lumpur with a teaching assignment at the German School there I threw myself into my professional career as a teacher. Things got worse. I had several physical issues to deal with in one year. Things had to change.
In 2025 Art found its way back to me from the years of silence. I realized that there is a sensual sense in life and that creating had been such an important part of myself. I only had to unearth this personal gift. I made piece with Social media in a way that there is a lot of bullshit being twirled around, a lot of brutal, fake or harmful bullshit. But it also is a way of connecting people and their ideas, an extraordinary treasure chest of inspiration and affirmation within a family of Artists and humans around the world.
I decided to produce pieces of Art work again. I use Social media as a source of getting connected with inspiring ideas and humans. And I try to produce more than I consume.
There is a legitimacy of using your hands to bring ideas on canvas, to use your hands to transform materials, to sweep your brush with colors, to process your ideas and to get lost in that flow of creativity.
Painting has its time.